9th Decomber 2000
oh yah oh yah i'm high high high..... i'm gonna kill u and u and u and u ... oh yes not forgetting u, u fag.... yes yes yes.... vodka vodka i'm glad i'm typing on alritey....... i neeeed cough syrup..... COUGH COUGH COUGH!!!!!!!!!!! oh my.... i'mmmm gonna kill u u fag.
7th December 2000
someone just named me *chicken*. thank you.
29th November 2000
just finished the novel Memories of Midnight by Sidney Sheldon. added a someday page. the quote is lifted from the novel.
23th November 2000
Added another page ponder ~ a realistic point of view from angie that no one could disagree, i dare you to disagree. don't even put it off by saying it's just plain whining about uncontented life. that's life. sick life. who dares to shake your head to this? please lift up your hands so i can chop them off.
22th November 2000
listening to The Bends now. love all the songs in this album. dunno y it reminds me about last december. could smell the smoke of funkytown, my big hair, the yellow turtle neck and POOL, cool POOL, and the nites where i stayed up just to wait for a page of good nite. silly. u do it to yourself u do, that's why it really hurts, coz u do it to yourself just do, u and no one else, u do it to yourself. i would love to master a single radiohead song on the guitar. heh. that's a long time ago's wish and nothing productive has been done, merely know the beginning of Banana Co and Bullet Proof. that's about it. thomas edward yorke is cool. i guess after a year of stagnant life, i'm still back to square one. still searching... for whatever fuck? i dunno. seriously dunno. oh... something familiar pop up my mind again, had been haunting me since last year... tan guan kiat... james. what the fuck?@?!&# A.S.S.H.O.L.E.
20th November 2000
FEVER. FLU. COUGH. SORE THROAT. 4 in 1. just a week ago i was boasting that i'm having the best health at home, the strongest to fight against virus. i guess we ought to be humble at times. it is miserable to get these all at one time. Sean just msged me. i'm so jealous to see them all on the ball for Him. is there still a chance for me? choose.
7th November 2000
for a moment i thought that's it, that's the end of my webpage. had some kinda columbo virus as per the web master, written by some unidentified third party. now that it's back, i gotta thanks whoever's damn free to set it into an error mode and change it back again. and thanks...but no thanks to set it back to error mode again. i don't need that. really. R.E.A.L.L.Y.28th October
i miss my brother. it's been a pathetic long time since we last talk, sitting together infront of the TV critisizing silly SBC shows, talk about what we did in school that are not suposed to be known to our parents. missed the time he brought me out to shop when he got his 1st pay. bought me Guess? jeans. and that was like... 6 years ago. or was it 7? i missed the crappie chats we had lying on our each individual beds at night, talking about stuffs that we did in our common primary school. our secret codes to show that we do not like certain things that the other party did at the instant. we are like total strangers now. tenants living under the same roof. he did not come for my birthday, i thought he would, and i wished he would.ego, we both have lotsa that. i do not know how to start. but i do wish that we could do those things that we used to again. can we?
27th October 2000
had an *eventful* off day. went
swimming at uncle's place and got the whole pool to myself. cool. slept the
whole damn afternoon away. had a sinful $23 meal with angie and eileen. i guess
i'll settle for fruits and veggie tomorrow.
Ivan's dad passed away. listening to KID A now. full blast. got a feeling that my computer will crash soon, low disk space.i guess it's really time for me to put away my damn ego and start calling my dad a proper *pa*. it's been a real long time since i last did tat. the bible's there lying for ages, collecting dust. maybe it's time i start reading it all over again. prefer those simplified children versions of parables and stories. missed church time... when i was so much on fire. so much in faith. but now i would question myself. are all these merely made up stuffs to tame beings? *shrugs* i surely hope to see my mum and dad in heaven, if there's one.