i could feel the muiltiple colors shining on my clothes, my bare legs, my face. felt like i'm in a living kaleidoscope. all the patterns and colors,spinning and blinding me. i saw what i didn't want to see, i thought what i didn't want my brain to think.

mama, i wanna bring u across the island and have fun. i wanna let you have what u've been deprived of. snugging 1/4 of your life to keep us alive. deprived of wearing good clothings and enjoying life 15 years ago. never had u step out to take an airplane to somewhere nice. i'll make a point to bring you there.

papa, it's been a long time since i called u papa. ever since that drunken wip from your belt with no good reason, i've decided to stop calling u that. alrite.i know u've quitted. but now i've started.

shine on me more. turning my white shirt luminous, transform me into an angel.can you really hear me Lord? or it's just all plain imagination to tame us down? i'm just a weakling wimp.

let U down.